With a boy like you

Hi again! ^^ I'm not dead yet but lazy to type anything hahaha XD Today I'm going to my grand mother's birthday celebration which is why I'm in such in a good mood today:) So last week I went to Sabah for my holiday's and it was very fun at the resort. But when I got there, I felt a little uneasy that is to say, me and my mom had to be with my uncle and my father (that is what I keep hearing in my head when I was in the airplane when it landed) I was really shivering with uneasiness every time me and my mom are alone. Guess it's instinct from me. The sun rises at six or seven in the morning with clouds that Singapore doesn't have and the sun sets at five and it becomes totally dark at six thirty! I was really mesmerized by the sun set even though it was hot and was sweating non stop. Okay so now for today's play list boy like you by Kesha, the last night by skillet, cantarella Vocaloid Rin and Len, hear our prayers and a song of storm and fire by Yuki Kaijura, Silent hill 2 music lullaby by Katethegreat90 in youtube and that about it ^-^

Kuroshitsuji ova came out on Wednesday and it did not get me excited enough like Ciel in wonderland. Ciel was smiling yes SMILING and Sebastian singing happy birthday and feeding you cake! It really gave me the shivers but Daisuke really tried to sing it in English so I'll clap for him for doing a job well done *clap clap clap* the next ova has some screen shots already and I'm excited. Sebastian in casual clothes and Alois was really a shock. Instead of booty shorts, he's wearing sweater and striped shirt! I was like o_O didn't have words to describe it at all. I'll post the picture but please don't mind the language about that person that posted it. So that's all for today hope everybody did their homework(have yet to do finish because of laziness) and have a wonderful holiday. Bye! Sayonara ^^

The ticking of a watch, the glitter of a sapphire ring and a necklace with the emblem

Hi again everyone. I'm bored today with nothing to do today. It's been raining here since 2pm and it's still raining now at 11.07pm. I found the items i wanted from AFA 2010 and I'm very happy about it. This year wans't as croweded as last year but I think the comic and toy convention would be pack since we can't find the comics that we want in Singapore. I'm now very excited for my trip to Sabha and tomorrow is Hari Raya(I wonder if I'm getting money? Okay joking joking XD) Yesterday drew I Ciel. It wasn't my first time but the 5th time and I really love it very much now all I need to do is to try drawing creases for clothes, draw a nice hairstyle with stands of hair spotted and design better clothings for him. I was just writing my fanfic and was immediately out of ideas since I haven't been reading books for a while and now look at what happens. Oh well I guess inspiration would be coming into my head soon after a break.This weeks playlist is skyway avenue, airplanes, magnet, vampire knight and vampire knight guilty main theme ost, candy from stranger, hypnotize by jane, in my arms, losing you and You. thats all for music. Now next is um........ I don't know what to talk about now. hehehe ^-^' So than an early post and a short one. Bye and have a happy holiday this two months.

When I look at pocket watches, venetian masks and Victorian dresses,

I feel warm inside

But at the same time sad.

I feel like crying for no real reason

I feel like I forgot something important to me.

I feel like I just got dumped by my boy friend

Why do I feel this way to the things related to the 18th century

I remember a saying

"Even if the mind fogets, the body remembers even if it is the past."

I would ask myself if this saying is true a not

I feel that is must be for i have no other explanatuion for it

I want to remember the past

I want to rmemeber my past life

But I can't

For if I want to know

I have to meet god in heaven to find out the truth

I love classical music and everytime I hear, I feel like home.

Everytime I hear someone play the violin, I would look whose playing it

And everytime I play the piano, I feel a type of happiness I could never have with my friends or family

Everytime all this things happens, I would ask myself is this happiness or longing?

All I know is this

Someone out there is the same as me

For the same likes for things, instrument and feelings

I'll be waiting for him

In the country that was on my mind since I was born.

I'll be waiting for him in London.

-A true feeling from me.

Everybody is a sleep and I'm awake

Okay i was suppose to post this yesterday night I think about 1 am? So that's why the title is that*points finger to the title* Okay so today i helped my mom bake a green tea cake*yummy* and also one full try of egg tarts*Delicious* and than I decided to go online check things out and I have one thing to say. If you don't have game to play and you search through all the same pages everyday of the whole year, you'll defiantly get bored easily. So basically today was just a whole boring day with nothing to do. I just drawn a character but the hair is a problem now cause I can't visualize a hair style that suits Ciela from my fanfic at all! Homework is another thing. Intergrated Humanities is just full of question marks after I read the list of homeworks to do. I was stuck on how to do it. Do it on paper and color it or use the computer to do it? I don't know a single thing at all! CCA was something I wish to avoid for a few days. And also, I'm going to AFA 2010 tomorrow! YES! i just have to find to things in the whole convention center and than I can be in peace from the grumbling at the back of my head saying "You have got to get Ciel's blue ring and Sebastian's pocket watch on AFA 2010!" I just hope I got money to buy the stuff cause the entry is already $24. And also I just found a picture that brought memories in Kuroshitsuji in Yana's blog. So that's all today for now. Ja ne!^^

I'm crying now.

I'm crying out of love for you

I've tried to make you happy,

I tried to make you become lively again

With that straight line on your lips and not a playful smirk on your face

It hurts badly

I'm crying in the middle of the night

Where I know you can hear me through that door that seperates us

But you ignored it

I'm heart broken

I'm tearing apart from the inside

I loved you so much but I never got it in return

It's just like the song that I always sing in my head

"Say good bye

As we dance with the devil tonight

Don't you dare look at him in the eye

As we dance with the devil tonight."

I'm now really dancing not in bliss

But in nothingness

A place where you where dancing with me

But now I'm the only one in that place dancing under that full moon

I use to look in your eye

But now I'm not

We use to dance everynight in my dream

But now it isn't

I yearn for you

Please, please return to the person you were before

I miss you Sebastian.

I'm in love with this cute little boy named Nishii Yukito

Okay I have to say something officially. I'm in love with Nishii Yukito as a Fan Girl. He just adorably cute that I really want to hug him =^o^= he stared in Kuroshitsuji the musical two and when I checked the information on the website. I mean he is literally like a girl when he was dressed up. He is so so...... I don't have words to describe it at all!*Goes to find pictures of him now* okay now that my fan girling mode is off now*finally* I'm busy like an adult okay 13 year old is considered an growing adult but I don't care the heck out of it! I got practises for choir three times a week and the remaining day Mon and Thurs is where I go do my homework and than rest. Oh and if anyone from my class is reading this, please note that English part 3 is needing a story book like Kira-Kira. Its in the sec 2 book list so don't do it yet!
This weeks playlist is Adore by Kalafina, Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep, Monster remix, Fairytale by Alexander, Foolish foolish by Yuya Matsushita(sorry if I spelled it wrongly) and that about it. I'm going to Malaysia Sabha(I think it spelled like that) 4 days 3 nights wohoo! I'm so going to get my real vacation started next week oAo now time to let my mom use the Computer. Until next time which I think next week or tomorrow. Bye ^^

Night into day
Day into night
After millennium night and day would merge
In a few millenniums later,
the world would have red as the sky and the dead as the living
Only time will tell
When your death is near.
It could be tomorrow, next week, or even today.
Who knows when it'll grab you and bring you down to the world of the dead
I'm not sure why I thought of it at all
But I had the dream
No I had the reality
Cause now, I've awaken from the coffin I slept in.
All I see around me all I hear are the sounds of people waking up.

Hi hi I'm back from Halloween. Hahaha. Today was very boring like any other day I had for holidays. Today went online to read Kuroshitsuji fanfic and than went to youtube and watch video's and sometimes how people draw and clor things in paint tool sai. An Darn that program is hard. Everytime I draw a line, it's not straight and I mean really not straight. I think I should stick to drawing with papaer and pencil:) Okay I forgot to give my playlist last week. but I think its too long so all my songs would be in the mixpod in my blog and a few more are kalafina Aria, Alice Alice victim effect and Kkuroshitsuji the musical two song black and white and checkmate. The last part was the best. first time seeing Ciel character dance something like that and Sebastian dance Micheal Jaksons dance. It was hillarious and Nishii who acted as Ciel asked for another carry from Yuya who acted as Sebastian. I was like what the! He really likes to be carried by Yuya after the scene where Ciel fell alseep and Sebastian carried him to bring him to his room. Ciel in wonderland the first part was very funny. That show was the funniest Kuroshitsuji episode (Ova) that I have ever watch. Holiday is here but with homework and CCA in schedule, it's like school. Really I was tired that I skipped my CCA today. Standing for one hour without moving is tiring. Anyway today really isn't much to write so I'll leave it here for now. Bye :D

I want to be love by you,
I want to be by your side forever and eternity
But you changed after I changed a little
You didn't love me like you use to
You have a hurt expression on your face that makes my heart break into two
You won't talk to me with your smirk on your face anymore
Not even a grin or surprised expression on your face
I only wanted to be by your side
I only wanted that
But it looks like you hate me now
You treat me as a different person that you were bound to.
I could only cry in my heart and say my sorrys for you
For I didn't want this to happen at all.
I wish time could turn back
Back to the days that you still loved me
Back to where you and I met
Back to the beginning